Letter from a fiance:
When I first found out about my fiance’s porn struggle it felt like someone came in and took me away from my body. I didn’t know who I was anymore. I couldn’t find me, because I felt so alone and afraid. But I did become selfish and made it a all about me kinda thing when I should have been caring about his struggle and the way it made him feel as well. I’m glad he doesn’t anymore. It wasn’t the fact that he did it but that he lied. I’m glad he has given that to God and has made a choice to choose God over his past struggle. God really does deliver and brings people out of darkness 
I still struggle with healing and forgiveness, but I have become so much better! I know it is all because of God and him healing my heart. I don’t want to NOT trust my fiance or forgive because if I was in his shoes, I’m not sure I would have told him either. Porn is a stinky issue to all involved. No one wants to talk about this addiction, especially people in the church. They have no problem talking about anything else but if you struggle with porn you are definitely off limits to the people that want to do “good things” for God. I’m not sure what I would do if I had no one to talk to if I struggled.
I’m so thankful that I had to be in a situation like this because if I hadn’t I would view porn completely different and God has really laid it upon my heart and my fiance’s to share with the church and the world the effects of porn and the people who are involved. Also, it has been about 5 months since he has stopped. And I think I will heal completely because that’s what I want and I believed God wants.
Our relationship continues to grow in the direction I know God wants. It is amazing to see we have become so thankful for the struggle our relationship has faced. It has given us more strength and more love to everyone involved with porn. Our hearts have been re-molded for God and I’m so excited to continue our lives together with our new trust!
